~ Hemangini Das
To ashley, you taught me life
in 6 songs.
Through '100 letters'
you said you were a physical fatality
a sin, I'd say on your behalf
to throw false verses around so candidly
well wonders never cease
we can be ripped at every edge
and still be a masterpiece
sometimes you can't love the boy
because you don't want someone
who is so colored by the vague notions
of cliché love that he can't
see past the concept he has been
fed since he was in 7th grade and
he wants you to love him like
you love your mom, but you
wonder how can he expect you to
love him more than you love yourself?
you understand that it is not
in the blood running through your
veins to love someone so childlike, leaving
you with only hoping that someone will
love him, but someone isn't you.
you see the person you love as
velvet or honey for your eyes & while
you're busy solving the labyrinth
they're stuck in, you're blinded
to how it's not a labyrinth they're stuck in,
because they are the labyrinth.
we begin by seeing them as shrines of
primroses and crocuses of yellow light
which grow up to be roses, not the kind
you'd bring your lover, but the kind
so camouflaged with thorns that there's
no way to touch them anymore without
having to bleed yourself a little.
from seeing yourself as the only force you'll
ever need to quench your desires
to seeing yourself as someone as vulnerable
as a butterfly's wings inflicted with
stains all over which no amount
of cleansing will help recover it's original colours,
i learned what self love is.
be a one night stand, rather
than slaving under someone who
shoves down a fabricated notion
of love in your throat everytime
you say you're hurting. don't belong to
the empty alleys who hid you from
your mother's eyes while you let him
have a taste of fairy tales in you.
you live under the impression that
you're pure as air, forgetting that
it's contaminated with dioxins and furans
and reeks of the inadequate breaths
of all you've loved and lost
and these chemicals are just names
of toxic compounds you've swallowed down
over the years only to strengthen your
immunity while weakening your heart.
Thank you for your music